I was Thinking, or Not

All you fuckers should have left me alone.  I am going to enjoy this too much.  I did not start the fire, but I am going to feed it, she is a hungry beast. Ah, the challenge, well not really much of one, but oh the thought of burying these fuckers just made my year. Thank you, JD

Fuck this world, it is not worth the effort to try any more.  I am much too old to give a shit, and there is very little time left to make a difference. Thank you, JD

The other day my wife said I still have to get you a Christmas gift.  Out of hand I said, don't worry about it. Now that I think about it, I can not think of one thing I want or need really.  No, really, I can not think of one thing, one trinket that I would desire. I am thinking, what would be nice?  A pint of warm stout, a pipe of Cavendish, on a sofa, with my wife, the dogs, and a nice warm fire, with some sweet low-fi jazz on playing softly in the background.  I think a nice evening of peaceful retreat from the insanity that is this f'd up life. If you could wish for just one thing, just one simple thing, what would it be?  Medical technology that brings health back to my wife, so her life would not be a struggle to breathe.  To meet up with my old friends just one more time before memory wipes away all traces of their names from my memory. I just can not think of anything.  Maybe, just a quiet end to my evening would be the best thing I could ...

How can a company take the same ingredients and make such an interior product? I have purchased Great Value pasta from Walmart several times, hoping that perhaps the first few times it was a fluke.  No, every time it is bad.  It is mushy, no matter how I cook it, it still comes out pasty.  I've cooked it per instructions, still pasty.  I've cooked it less time, rinsed it in cold water, still pasty.  I've cooked it and let it set, still mushy and pasty. It may be cheap, but somehow they have taken what is essentially a very simple to make product and made it so poorly that it is inedible. I think it must be either their process, or the quality of their wheat.  Maybe it is both, but something just does not work.  I have used other store brands, like Wegmans' brand pasta, not even their premium label, just their standard label, and it comes out good every time. Of course none of it is as good as fresh made pasta, but that is a different subject comple...

What do you people want from me?  Want me to talk about politics?  To talk about Trump?  He is who he is, meet him once, many years ago, was having lunch in a place in NY City with my employer, her knew Donald.  Donald came over, I was introduced, we did not speak though.  Donald talked to my employer.  His Manor of speech that he uses is for the common folk, it endears him to his perception of his core constitutes.  That day he was loud and obnoxious to the waitress, but articulate and relatively intellectual to my employer, so take from that what you will.  He is not quite our worst president, definitely not a good leader, but he only wanted to run and win, he did not know what it takes to be an insider. The Republicans tried to get rid of Obama for eight years, so I guess it is only fair that the Democrats will try to get rid of Trump for four years.  I do not think he has the staying power.  So it is unlikely he will be around much ...

I do everything wrong, no key words in my title, no hot topics in my blog, but here I am again watching the same old shoot'em up, and the same old who done what to whom.  I don't know much about anything, I just know I keep putting these miles behind me, and no matter how far I roam, I'm still ten thousand miles from home. Hum this with a twelve four beat, it won't make it any better it will just be funny to me that some people will actually try to. What am I doing here, watching the dogs, as they go ballistic after another motorcycle, or some random noisey car.   

I did not think I would be effected.  I do not usually feel death the same as most people.  I mean people die, they go their way, and leave behind a useless cage.  I still had this weird feeling that he was going to come over and say it was okay.  He always did that, console me, tell me it will be okay, and I believed him, if even for the moment. He is silent now, not even the echo of his voice remains.  Memories linger longer, but even they will fade.  I grasp at them like reeds in a storm, the water rises, I am not a strong swimmer. They gave him a good christian burial, I know he deserved that.  What else could they do, they do not know any better, ignorant as they are.  Death is for the living, we even celebrate it.  The past fades, we slip into routines and accept the ghost as they are, memories of what they were.  Nothing remains once the remains are laid to rest. I should have said something, should have made a statement, a tes...

Here then is this article, http://tcat.tc/112or2n, which discusses the making of your own religion, or thereby another copy of such religions as has been made before.  It does not discuss the making of a religion, but the re branding of current concept of religion under a new brand.  It is still the bronze age idea of "God" based religion. You can not make your own religion, because religion has too much structure, for it to work, it must conform to the conventions of current religions.  If you read the article, read some of the comments, they are as important to the discussion.  There are plenty of comments from people who profess to be atheist, which by definition is the belief in nothing, yet they believe they are atheist, therefore negating the entire argument. The author of the article states that human beings are hardwired to be religious.  This is not exactly true, we are hardwired to believe in somethings, no matter what they are.  Religio...

Been trying to get my head wrapped around this for some time now.  From the day I learned of his diagnosis, I knew the eventual outcome.  Still I thought it should not be.  I have been so distant, so remote, I did not know these people anymore.  Still I felt as though I knew my brother, I would see him here and there.  I still do not know what to say to anyone. At some point I had broken away from the family, and I have never reconnected on any level really.  The past I thought was behind me, ghost of a distant self, now haunt me from the prison of my mind.  Shadows stalk me from the shadows of those that before me tread these paths.  I am not alone here, but I am without something, something I never thought mattered until yesterday. Tom is gone, he gave me hope, reminded me of humanity, and I wanted that, though it was out of reach for me. A new person comes along, and I am still cautious, there is no reason, no rhyme, I should not have seen t...

After nearly two weeks of frustration, I have realized one thing, building a blog on WordPress is not as easy as the YouTubers make it out to be.  It is pretty simple to set up, with one click install and all.  Setting up security, it is a little more difficult, but with a few plugins that is not too bad.  Then a few more plugins and you can have a fairly interesting site in a fairly short amount of time.  Just add content and you are all set. Add an ecommerce plugin like woocommerce and you have a decent site for your blog I guess. The truth is to do this, you need more than just a domain name, a web server, a CMS application, and an ecommerce solution.  Maybe I am wrong, most likely I am wrong. Let me give you a little background.  I started out with technology pretty much when it started.  I built my first computer from a kit.  I had to learn programming because there really wasn't any applications.  Some friends and me built applicatio...

I've been buying from Amazon for quite a few years now, and have really increased my number of products I buy from them over the past couple of years.  I think it is time I went back on the site and actually provided some reviews of the products I have used. Oh wait, maybe what I should do is write the reviews on a blog, and then use a snapshot of the full review, with my blog site link in it, to post on Amazon.  And I could put an Amazon affiliate link in my blog post to the product, so when I publish the blog post and update my Twitter feed, it would have the affiliate link built in. Now I need to build a Twitter post frame, so that too enhances my brand.  Wait first I have to build the brand identity. I guess posting a review on Amazon just got a whole lot more complicated.  Well first I need to see if I can actually build a template for the blog.  There is a lot to do, I really need to get busy. Peace, JD

I read, and watch a lot of stuff on the web about this positivity movement.  It is great, sure, but sometimes you need to have a reality check.  Sometimes you just have to recognize stupid for what it is. Now about here I could interject a bunch of wit about being a realist, or how life is not this or it is this, but I do not believe that is helpful. No, I will say if you want to delude yourself, and that works for you, go ahead.  The same can be said for negativity, if you want to hate all day every day be my guest, just do not do it in my house.  You see I am a classical realist, and I will see the truth, and I have no qualms of telling it like it is, with no sugar added. However I will say I do enjoy the company of a wide-eyed optimist over a white supremacist most any day. This brings me to a subject that I have not yet broken, but it has finally gotten to me, and I will be talking about it soon.  There is only one race of human, no matter what these pic...

One thing I want to make sure everyone is aware of, is that I am not a financial planner, or investment adviser, or any other professional designated person, and I do not provide any type of financial or legal advisement. That said, I am still suggesting that Tesla is a buy and hold for now, at least while they are still holding the orders for their commercial semi truck platform.  As long as they continue to develop in the areas of commercial transport, and commercial energy , they will continue to be a buy and hold prospect. One thing I am going to say about Tesla and I am surprised about this (though not completely) is that they did not build on the platform.  Therefore I do not think that Tesla should invest in building a pick-up truck.  Here is why.  If they wanted to build a truck platform, that would be good, but it would have to be a heavy duty platform.  That should be their first goal, build the platform.  Once they have the platform, they ...

I have watched a lot of blogs on financial planning, especially on writing a blog, and this one is one of the best I have seen.  Though it really is a 15 minute commercial for his free email handbook, and a way to include monetization into his video, I still find it valuable. Though I have not read it, I am going to suggest that you buy and read his book " Soldier of Finance ". If it is at least half as good as his videos, it will be full of useful information, irrelevant humor, and worth whatever it cost. I will likely buy the book and maybe even review it, but get it now, and start to help yourself today. Peace, JD

This is the best stream on the web, always entertaining.  Do not forget to like the video, and tell them you found them from the blog, if you want to. Peace JD

Well I signed up for my Amazon Merch account, and everything seemed to be going great.  I had to get an online savings account, because apparently Amazon will take PayPal as a form of payment (well only my debit card), but they will not pay out to a PayPal account.  So after about a week of faffing around with the bank, I finally got the account set up. Now my account is all set up with Amazon, not with PayPal yet, as the deposits haven't hit the bank account so I can make the deposits to PayPal, or some such nonsense.  This is all such BS, so much faffing around when I know there is no such thing as security, and the rest is all red tape crap for the government.  Anyway, the accounts are set up and I thought I was on my way.  Thought I would have a T-shirt to present to my readers, just a basic T-shirt with blog title on it, something to get the ball rolling. Nope, not yet, now Amazon is holding my T-shirt hostage for some unknown reason.  More delays...

Awesome, I just kind of, sort of made a few minor changes to my blog.  Mostly I changed a few of the sidebar things (took out the redundancy), and changed the colors of the backgrounds and text so it suits me a little more.  It is not perfect yet, I still do not like the colors quite, and now my links are all broken.  I do not know how changing the colors broke all the links, but it did, swell. So for the next few days I am going through every single blog post and changing the links so that they all work properly again.  I may toy with the colors some more to get it closer to my desired design, but for the most part I am done there. I do not foresee the link fixing as being all that enjoyable, or for that matter useful, but there is this thing about me, that I want the links to work, even if they will never be used by anyone. One bonus to this is that now I can go through all my post and insert Amazon affiliate links where appropriate, so maybe that will at le...

At some point you were all expecting this post, so here it is. I have been, and remain an advocate for the decriminalization and outright abatement of all laws pertaining to the use of drugs.  That is to say, I have some personal limits, I feel no need to disclose such here, as my use is my own issue, past and present.  However, that said, my stance has not changed on the use of all substances, considered to be illegal.  This really stems to a deeper level of my stance on the legislation of morality, but that is a ball I am not going to unravel at the moment, too much. In this "great" country of ours, currently there is this wave of debate as to the legality of cannabis use.  I have read extensive articles, treatises, and scholarly documents on both sides of this debate, and for me there is usually too much passion in either side.  This leads me to take either with a very large dose of skepticism. First let me state right from the beginning that I advocat...

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Apathy is a circumstance that often seems the choice that makes some sense.  Why should I give a shit about anything at all?  It is not like it will make any difference. I once thought that I could make a difference.  I once believed that your actions mattered.  That you could effect change through deeds and even to some degree words and pictures.  I now know that it was a false hope that I harbored, and that because I did not have connections to the right groups, to the money chain, that I was just fooling myself. Sort of how I once thought this blog was an answer to something.  That what I wrote here mattered at least to someone.  I now know that is not the case.  I now realize that nothing matters, except where money is made.  There are no causes, only more subversive means to an end.  If it does not sell something, if there is no money to be made, it is a waste of time. That is why the gun issue is so hot.  It makes lots ...