Family Values
Been trying to get my head wrapped around this for some time now. From the day I learned of his diagnosis, I knew the eventual outcome. Still I thought it should not be. I have been so distant, so remote, I did not know these people anymore. Still I felt as though I knew my brother, I would see him here and there. I still do not know what to say to anyone. At some point I had broken away from the family, and I have never reconnected on any level really. The past I thought was behind me, ghost of a distant self, now haunt me from the prison of my mind. Shadows stalk me from the shadows of those that before me tread these paths. I am not alone here, but I am without something, something I never thought mattered until yesterday. Tom is gone, he gave me hope, reminded me of humanity, and I wanted that, though it was out of reach for me. A new person comes along, and I am still cautious, there is no reason, no rhyme, I should not have seen this, I am way beyond my time. Am I jus