I somehow managed to get to a point where I don't do anything. Where I am not involved in life at all really. Nothing exist outside the small center from which I see only that which is in front of me. My sole window on the world is a 15" screen. I am considering a greater level of isolation, but it seems like I could not be more insulated from what is, than to just shut down completely. What happened to me?
Friends Still Unresolved
From: Letters to No One in Particular These friends that you speak of, yes I know them quite well… they are an illusion to me now. I still think of “friends” that were friends once upon a time, far far away. I see their lives play out on the screen from the safety of my monitor, alive, but barely living. Why haven’t we kept in touch, what has changed all that much, I can not say, but it was a long, long ways away. Ah, but I have reached out, here and there, the occasional call, a casual hello, maybe even a conversation sometimes, that will lead to an agreement to meet sometime, but it will never be arranged. We are all too busy with our lives. We have all changed, and grew away from that time, we remember, if we choose to, but most of us choose not to, it wasn't all that pretty even back then. The last time we met, I was too strung out to forget, or I was too sober to compete with anyone’s bet. There were a couple of times I do not regret,...
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