I was Thinking, or Not

I can't move forward any further. The weight is to great for a frail frame such as I. This hollow and empty hole that fills me, consumes me, won't let me see through this fog of manifest destiny. I carefully pick my way through the verities of the passing days, observing how the people swirl in ever changing hues of blue and green before me. Passing by the dark hearts, and purple people in the sea of green, while a few blue and gold will extend a hand, only to have it greased up in some formal joke I was not told about. This is about enough, it is time to take out the garbage. Time is catching up with us all, it will catch us with our hands tied to the whipping boy. As the carousel girls swirl in their undulating dance of seduction, around the inferno that is the moment of your now. Can you resist their suggestions, their twisted bodies mirrored in the pools of despair. The boy laughs and hands you your head, in case you ever wanted to use it. Now, now, that's okay, ...

Yet to Notice Anyone I have yet to notice that anyone pays any attention to anything that might be of consequence. That all that occupies the minds of the average citizen is far from important, and that we as a society are too easily distracted by shiny objectives. That we are easily directed and have very little individual thought, outside of what we think will impress the others in our close social groupings. This odd behavior is perhaps born in, or bred in, but either way it presents a very disturbing effect, presenting itself as a path to local control through very deceptive practices that can at least in most cases seem like beneficial practices at least to the practitioners of such practices. I am left to assume that although not hopeless, the human species is helpless in their survival of anything that may be more cataclysmic than a simple hurricane or thunderstorm. I do not like this need to assume, but at this point it is what remains of a thought, of an old thought, that...

The Trouble with Fear Although it can be said that on a very limited and basic level, fear is helpful for survival ( fear instinct ), it is also shown to be highly detrimental to our survival when demonstrated to be irrational.  How do you know the difference?  The subject of many different studies, the basic distinction is instinctual fear and learned fear.  What we are born with, the fear of predators is hard wired into our genetic code, for survival purposes.  Fear we learn as we are growing, these are fears designed to control the mind, and produce no usable results except to keep the individual from living a free and joyful existence.  There is something inside this society that says one must not have to much joy, that only through the puritan values of hard labor and suffering can one produce equitable results.  This long held belief has been used so effectively that at this point it may have become wired into our genetic code, almost as much as our fear of predators. We ...

Feeling no pain You just have to ask yourself, do they really think all of us will forget. Maybe, most or at least some of us will, the American populace is notorious for short attention spans. If provided with enough distraction, like the Gaza Strip tease, maybe we will forget the whole bailout mess, but not all of us. Some of us will bring this to task, if not now later, when they think they are in the clear. Revenge is a dish best served cold. Keep that in mind while most Americans are trying to pay for heating oil, and Washington is basking in the glow of tax dollars as the tax season approaches. It is pretty hard to justify the need to pay our taxes (which are automatic for most people) when the Fat Cats who purchased the government are raking in millions of tax payer dollars from their own private tax holiday. When will this have gone to far? That is a question yet to be answered. How long before the silent majority no longer remains silent that is the truly scary questi...

NAIS, Agriculture, and Government What are we to do? Although I haven't read a lot about this, I have read enough to form at least a basic understanding.  As I look at my dairy, and the potential for using technology, I already will include radio tags for my cattle.  This is an expense that will assist me in identification of my cattle, for breeding and milking.  I have a strong database that tracks the linage of my cattle so that I can document the genetics, for breed conservancy.  I also track their health in many, many documents, all electronically documented in my database.  I also track their food through the same database, so I can be certain that we are feeding a high quality feed to our cattle.  I track their milk production and heat or dry stages, and other details, and all of this is helped by my use of radio identification.  I track their behavior as well, using herd notes (written by the herd manager, the milker, and by my personal observation), using radio tracking ...

I have of late been studying the Law of Attraction. Through my study I have seen that it is possible that what you think, what you feel, is what manifest. This I do believe, but I feel also that it is not quite that simple. I have run into this positive force concept over many years, and it has for some worked, but I wonder why has it not worked for me? The value of thought, the purpose of thought, becomes that which you desire. From desire come obsession, and from obsession comes consumption, and from consumption comes manifestation. It is our reluctance to obsess that prevents us from manifesting our desires. At one time I used to obsess, and from this I achieved some measure of success, but it was tainted with my cynical distaste for resource. Therefore I developed a fear of success, and with that only undid what I was attempting to do. I said it will not happen, so no matter how much I put forth into making it happen, it did not, because I was certain that it would not. Thi...

Organic Dairy Farm Operation My research has lead me to believe that an organic dairy operation would be more valuable in the long run, as part of a larger organic farm operation.  It is not exclusively the increase in cost off set by the increase in value to the milk that is the determining factor, but that it is part of a more dynamic farming operation.  To make the farm profitable in these times of economic instability, it is necessary to farm dynamically.  This means integrated practices, and diversified operations.  This is good for the farm itself, but also for the community in which it operates.  A fully operating dairy will employ a small number of people from the local area, providing them often with more than just a paycheck, but with many other benefits, such as housing if needed, and products at substantial discounts, if not part of their benefits themselves.  A well developed diversified farm operation can provide even more jobs for the community in many other areas th...

Organic Dairy Farm Operation My research has lead me to believe that an organic dairy operation would be more valuable in the long run, as part of a larger organic farm operation.  It is not exclusively the increase in cost off set by the increase in value to the milk that is the determining factor, but that it is part of a more dynamic farming operation.  To make the farm profitable in these times of economic instability, it is necessary to farm dynamically.  This means integrated practices, and diversified operations.  This is good for the farm itself, but also for the community in which it operates.  A fully operating dairy will employ a small number of people from the local area, providing them often with more than just a paycheck, but with many other benefits, such as housing if needed, and products at substantial discounts, if not part of their benefits themselves.  A well developed diversified farm operation can provide even more jobs for the community in many other areas th...

Tribe 2 a treatise The gathering of the tribe, or more percisely, the assembling of a crack team designed to figure out what it all means.  For instance I know that everything has signifigance and purpose.  Not only that but also everything has intercate workings that affect the general or greater workings. If we look far enough back, there's extreamly simplistic knowledge, that is elite, or closely held.  Dilution of this knowledge prepares it for the masses, while the elite can still exist without disclosing their purpose.  The simple lies inside the complex and the complex is inside the simple, a very cleaver method of obscuring origin while leading the ignorant masses towards a very different direction.  Furthermore if the complex is simple and the simple complex, how how then are we to decipher the difference, or better yet the similarities.   Something so simple it alludes us and we seek a more complex solution.  So we take our cue from from that, and from the example...

What Now I thinking, breathing, wondering, because although I sort of knew that Obama would win, what does that mean? I have taken a look around and there are no candles to speak of. Most everyone has gone to bed, no worries in their heads, content that they have the right decision. All I keep thinking is; did they just give up, are they just lying down, calling it quits. Have they gotten tired and just want to retire. But oh no, there it is, just out of sight, like they want him to be, Bidden, his time is yet to come.

For and to whomever it concerns. Let this be the next installment in indecision. What do I do, to change the wave of nothing that exist in this current situation. I sit here, looking at the potential, with no reality interjected, what can be of this.

Sir Halford Mackinder - Google Search A search on Sir Halford Mackinder, geo-politician and lawyer, part of a research project.

Bloomberg.com: Canada Bank of Canada Joins Global Central Banks in Providing Funds Bloomberg Report Again my favorite business media reports about the raising global economic crisis. And again they fluff the story, softening the edges so it won't hurt so much. I guess you get what you want from the media slime, but in the story is part of the puzzle if you are willing to look for it. Keep ignoring the reality and eventually your fantasy will turn into that reality that you wished was only a Hollywood blockbuster. Watch another episode of (insert reality TV program)and try to remember what it was like when we had the opportunity to claim our freedom form the lord and protector now waiting for you all to hand them the reigns. Sleep well James

Clusterfuck Nation by Jim Kunstler Another great rant by Jim Howard Kuntsler, with the critical wit that only those who are awake really get.

Bloomberg.com: U.S. Morgan Stanley Said to Mull Deal; Wachovia Calls Mack (Update3) By Christine Harper and Jonathan Keehner Sept. 17 (Bloomberg) -- Morgan Stanley is weighing a merger with Wachovia Corp. and several other banks as the securities firm seeks to regain investor confidence after its shares sank 42 percent this week, people familiar with the matter said. Morgan Stanley, merger... hmm what would this mean? Let us take a quick look back at this week. Lehman Brothers bankrupt, AIG bailed out by the tax payers (so fat cats don't lose all their money), and Morgan Stanley and Goldman Sachs take a dive on the markets. This is in addition to Merrill Lynch sold to Bank of America, the loss of Bear Sterns, the near crash of Freddie Mac and Fannie Mae, so what is going on? If you watch the media heads, this is beginning of the domino effect, globally. Yes Global! Not just the financial stocks either, have you taken a look at Google stock, ouch. The TV continues to pour out s...

I want to thank Bethany for her helpful comment on my blog about fund raising . I have checked out her pages at DRINK-A-THON for Blood:Water Mission , and I am checking out this program as well. However I am already considering this and again the success is based in your friends network. So Thank You Bethany for the comment, and hopefully it will help me find more ways to help more people. If anyone reads my blog they will see that I am trying to help more people, and maybe this will help.

Financial Gain to Someone I don't now if anyone has been paying any attention to the recent (which in truth is not recent at all), financial situation, but it is not what it appears. Has anyone been listening to the talking heads, and corporate media bots, they are listening to the political spin doctors, and feeding us disinformation of such magnitude, it is almost hilarious to an extraction.

Chasing the money? How do I chase the money? When I need to look for a way to fund something, I look through ways to raise money online. I hear about all types of people who have raised money through the internet for whatever causes. I keep trying to find these people, figure out what it is that they did, and how I can apply that to my situation. So far nothing is coming out of my search.

Searching for the support for people is endless. There are thousands of people who need assistance and billions of dollars available, and hundreds of organizations that tap those dollars to provide those funds for individuals, if only all that could be brought together. As I look for funding to assist others I realize that it is the convoluted process that angers me, and why I believe that most other people are unable to find help on their own. This is just more of why I must help others, but in some way it helps me as well to better understand why they need the help in the first place.

Founding of a New Foundation for Real People This is a Draft Document Version One Series One This project is tentatively called Working Class Heroes or A Working Class Hero is Something to Be Supporting the working class heroes. The organization is not for the people who do not work, but for those that have and continue to work. The working class heroes of the world. It is hard to find help for those that are working and are not homeless, but are in the situation where if they do not receive some type of assistance they soon will be homeless and without a job. Or perhaps they have worked, and because of some incidence be it injury or otherwise, are no longer working, or able to work in the traditional way that they are accustomed. Yes there is some assistance to some of these people, but often not without breaking their pride, or destroying their dignity. Is it necessary to break them even more so, as if their years of labor and thankless toil were not enough to break their spir...